My little saviours
I love you. Me and daddy got the best gift ever, you're our little double love package that I would never want to return.
When I first found out you two little beans were growing inside my tummy I was so scared and unsure of what was going to happen. I didn't feel ready at all but as you grew as well as my tummy I got more and more excited to meet you every day. Daddy was SO excited, when I told him about you he cried from happiness.
I think that waiting for you was one of the hardest things ever, I didn't really have a great time. I felt very lonely and worried if I was going to be a good mummy for you. Unfortunately, I was told that I wouldn't, I was hurt. Some people left our lives, some tried to sabotage our happiness but that is okay, they didn't deserve your presence anyway. I'll make sure you won't ever have to deal with them.
Sometimes I doubt myself, if I'm really good enough for you, if I'm strong enough to protect you from myself, my pain. I thought that maybe the things people said were true. That I wasn't stable enough to have you.
I can get very sad and angry sometimes, if you ever see it please know that you are never the reason. You are never the problem. My intentions will never change. I will give you everything you deserve. I will always create a safe space for you, and I will always provide. I will always give you all the love you deserve and more. Daddy will too!
Even though waiting for you was very hard it was so worth it in the end. Look at us now my little saviours. You teach me to be a better person every day.
Seeing you for the first time, touching your little hands was love I've never felt before. I was so happy and daddy was so happy. He was the first one to hold you! We have been with you every day since the day you were born.
You are almost 3 months old now, you are growing so fast. My Sanna, you are so cuddly and anxious, all you want is to be held and you my Oli are such a funny guy, you're a little protector who always makes sure that milk is made on time for you and your sister. You also BOTH love to sleep in our bed in the mornings and we love it too.
I am so excited for our future together, and for you to keep growing right in front of me. I pray to all gods for you to be happy and healthy. My little stars.
I apologize if I ever make mistakes.
Mummy and Daddy love you. Forever. Nothing tears us apart.
Love,
Mummy